'Motherhood Made Me' Series - My Story

“Motherhood made me.” I think this phrase sums things up quite perfectly. Everyone will have a different take on the meaning, but for me it pulls it all together. When I reached out to my friends and family to contribute for this series, I didn’t give many requirements or guidelines. I simply asked for them to write their thoughts on the phrase. It’s been such a pleasure reading the sweet stories I’ve received back, and I’m so grateful that these women have been willing to share their hearts with us. Over the next few weeks you’ll get to hear from some of my family, and closest friends, but to kick us off, I’m sharing my own #motherhoodmademe story.

B.M. - Before Motherhood

Before motherhood I was confident in my identity, and content to be following the path set forth for me. But, I knew I was searching for more. I have always wanted to be a mom, so it’s no surprise that this calling has helped me to find my true self; and even more, my true purpose. My parents recently found a piece of artwork that I made in Kindergarten; it’s a very simple drawing of stick figures in response to the prompt, “what do you want to be when you grow up?” My answer: “a Mom.” From the age of five, I knew I wanted this. But, what that little girl never could have imagined is just how much it would change me.

The Lessons

Though I’ve only been momming for five years, the number of lessons far exceeds what you would typically learn in that time span. I’ve learned about my mind, my body, my relationships, my fears, my faith; the list is never ending. During my pregnancy, and birth to Max I discovered that my body is capable of much more than I ever thought. I stretched and grew in ways I didn’t know were possible; both physically and emotionally. I finally understood what I had heard so many women before me say: it is a love like no other. When Levi came into this world, fast and furious, there were new lessons. Including the fact that this petite gal can withstand pain unlike anything else she’s ever experienced. I was also introduced to another new kind of love-the kind where your heart expands even further beyond belief, and you begin to realize that it belongs less to you, than it does to the two tiny humans you’ve created. My heart and mind have been tested to their limits. From sleep deprivation, to tending to scraped knees, to being up all night with the terrifying croup cough, to moments of pure joy and pride. The emotions are deeper and stronger than ever before.

These lessons have taught me what’s truly important. They have reshaped my priorities, given me perspective, and grounded me in a way that only motherhood can. I’ve learned to trust my gut, and my faith. I’ve gained new appreciation for the work it takes to build, and maintain, strong relationships. Through motherhood, I’ve found myself. I’ve learned who I am - on the inside and the outside. I’ve discovered that I have a bit of mama bear in me, and that loose fitting shirts and high waist jeans are my jam. I’ve found my voice and am honing in on my passions. I’m the happiest, and most comfortable in my own skin I have ever been. Motherhood has given me that.

Motherhood Made Me

So many of the blessings in my life are tied to motherhood. I have bonded with many of my closest friends because we’re moms. My dreams of writing and sharing my voice have found a platform, because I’m a mom. My sense of self and purpose are stronger than ever, because I’m a mom. Motherhood is not the only path to self discovery, and it’s not the only important ‘job’ we will ever have. But, it has filled my heart and soul, and helped me to grow into the woman I am today. Motherhood made me.