'Motherhood Made Me Series' Katie's Story

You know how life sometimes introduces those perfect friends, at the absolute perfect time? This beautiful human is one of those friends to me. We met when our oldest sons were babies, and though we connected from the beginning, our friendship really blossomed over the past couple years. Katie has listened to my deepest motherhood worries, she has encouraged me to pursue my dreams, and she has seen me let my kids run around naked, and eat food off of the floor. She accepts you for who you are; with an open heart and a warm smile. If you’ve had the pleasure of meeting her, you know that she radiates light and love. She is a dreamer and a doer, and she is one of my most favorite follows on Instagram. Katie is genuine, and she keeps it real. I am so very thankful to call her one of my best friends, and to share her #motherhoodmademe wisdom.

Here is Katie’s Story:

I still vividly remember the day I found out I was pregnant with my oldest son, Van.

I was in total denial for a week but thought “alright let’s just get pregnancy off the table and take this test so I can go to the doctor and see what’s up with my birth control.” As those two pink lines showed up almost immediately on my test, I was overcome with a feeling that can only be described as: “W.T.F.”

I was on birth control. This was not a part of our plan (or so we thought). I still had one more semester of college. We were not prepared.

Fast forward 5 years, and I’d be lying if I said that “W.T.F.” feeling has worn off. But I’d also be lying if I said that this calling of motherhood, and these tiny little people who turn my world upside down and backwards on the daily, weren’t the best thing to ever happen to me.

Cue Alanis Morissette‘s “isn’t it ironic...don’t you think?” (*which PS by the way is grammatically incorrect but, it’s fine...it’s catchy and relatable.)

Just like Alanis Morissette‘s hit song lyrics suggest; motherhood has taught me that things won’t always go the way we think they will...and that’s okay.

I think back to brand new mama Katie and remember her trying so hard to control everything. Because I felt this need to prove that I knew what I was doing, and that I was an amazing mother. And that period of my life is when I actually felt the most out of control. “Isn’t it ironic...don’t you think?”

Now here we are with 2 more kids and, guys I still have no idea what I’m doing. Like, I’m writing this at 7:00 am after being up since 2:00 am with my son with autism because we can’t figure out a sleep regimen that works for him. (Another thing motherhood has taught me: how to operate on little-to-no-sleep.)

But I know that despite my downfalls, I am working towards being an amazing mother...and that is because I have let go of the reigns a little bit, and have humbled myself enough to know that I, Katie Sorensen, am NOT in control of how this life goes.

Motherhood made me realize: you don’t have control of WHAT life throws at you, but you do have control of HOW you take it.

It’s like when you just pick up your new rug from the laundromat, lay it down, and come back into the room to see your son has ripped off his diaper, and taken a giant poop in the middle of the room. (Now go back and read that in an Alanis Moreisette voice to get the full effect.) 100% based on a true story.

This is just one of the many “isn’t it ironic” moments I’ve had sprinkled throughout my motherhood journey...and while I kind of dislike all of them, I also love them and appreciate them for the lesson they have collectively taught me.

Isn’t it Ironic, don’t you think?

A little too ironic.